Welcome aboard, friend!
Dusting off the keyboard here I have had a wave of inspiration to get writing once again. I’m not talking news writing or the pyramid structure I was taught to abide by at university: I mean real free writing. A chance to unlock the cage and let my thoughts fly free.
So, the Captain’s Log was born: A daily blog covering the ins and outs of my brain, what I’ve been up to, and what you can expect from Dare To Fly in the future. If you read my last blog post you will understand that the blog has been fairly quiet for some time, but I have realised that my focus needed to be elsewhere. Not only for my mental health but for the health of the channel – I was able to focus on the content I wanted to create rather than worrying about what certain viewers might want to watch.
Now, it feels right to allow my brain to possess my fingers and get tapping away without worrying about whether I’ve included SEO keywords and a minimum of three sources. My lecturers wouldn’t approve of this venture, never mind the use of Ouija boards…
Let’s not dwell too much on that, shall we? I’ve been focusing on the positive aspects of life recently, which feels refreshing as I’m often used to overthinking and getting stuck in my own head. Right now, I’ve been thankful for being surrounded by wonderful family and friends – both alive and in spirit. I am reminded that I am loved and that I can love others: A feeling I always cherish and feel lucky to be able to experience, especially during these uncertain times.
My health has also been a large focus as I’ve taken steps to combat my anxiety by actively challenging it through exposure and by working on modules as part of my CBT therapy. I’ve come a long way since I started my mental health journey a few weeks ago and I know the battle has only just begun – my anxiety demon likes to hide in the shadows, dormant for a while, waiting for the perfect opportunity to strike.
Whilst focusing on my mental health I have had to come to terms with the pressures I often put on myself, which often focuses on Dare To Fly. Overthinking is my speciality, and when I’m not thinking about what I could be doing with the channel, I am worrying about what I am not doing. Not doing anything to me means no progress is being made and I am not working at my full potential: It just isn’t good enough. But I can’t be like that 24/7, whilst I am Captain, I am also still human – I have to balance working on the channel and blog with taking time out to relax and put my feet up.
Doing nothing is OK, you shouldn’t be afraid to just deflate and let everything hang loose (metaphorically, or literally if that’s your thing). Writing this now I can feel my brain oozing and deflating – even if no one reads this, I know that I am doing a service for myself, to let the thoughts float away into the ether.
Before I close and slurp away at my peppermint tea, here’s an update as to what you can expect from Dare To Fly in the coming weeks:
- Mass Awakening content – We are approaching a mass awakening and I’ll cover what you can expect to experience
- Do the Royal Family have a genetic blood disease?
- Regular daily updates regarding the channel and what I’ve been up to
- Anxiety coping strategies
- My experience with fasting
- Getting back into live streaming
So, you survived the first Captain Log and reached the very end – congratulations! (I’d offer you some bacon but I already ate it). In all seriousness, thank you for all of your support: My heart is full and sends out love and light to you all.
Captain Emily, signing off for now.